What Is My Blog All About? #BEDM

This blog began in August 2010 when I was newly married and attempting to think about starting to try for a baby.

Ironically, I was already pregnant since July but didn’t realise!!  In April 2011 Joel was born.  As a first time mother everything was a bit stressful, crazy and my world turned upside down, but in a good way.

I got into blogging when I was taking some classes towards a Post Graduate Diploma in Media Futures.  I hadn’t known about blogs before that, and an assignment meant I had to create one.  I chose to follow the Rugby Union World Cup and report on that as whilst I was a Uni 15 years ago, I had played on the women’s rugby team.  I was a big Johnny Wilkinson fan 🙂

I then got a MySpace (ha ha!  Who remembers MySpace?!) account and used the blogging facility on there, before cutting and pasting it all into Blogger.

Having managed to fill my photo allowance on that blog, I then imported it all to WordPress a year or so ago as it seemed a good idea at the time!

I’ve had various blogs over the years, including a wedding planning blog, but this one seems to have stood the test of time.  It is a bit of a diary for me, and having recently had a second baby it’s been helpful to look back and compare pregnancy aches and pains and worries.  You’ll also find my attempts at making birthday cakes, our house renovation as we work through room by room (having moved in May last year), occasional recipes, two pregnancies and bump pictures, two birth stories, two miscarriage stories, the introduction of our dog, Izzy, family life and working life.  Oh, and occasional travels and holidays, although that doesn’t happen so much anymore!!

Plus, I have to say that I have loved reading other blogs of people in the same situation as me.  It’s almost comforting to know that you’re not alone in your worries and I feel that if me discussing something which is going on in my life can offer support or help to others, then I think it’s worth it.

So welcome to my blog.   Feel free to browse around. I hope you see something you like!


10 Weeks Later….. (Plus a day!!)

Josiah turned ten weeks old yesterday, and I can’t believe in two weeks time he’s been here nearly a quarter of a year!  And if I carry on feeding myself I will earn my Bronze boobies!!  (I don’t know where it began, but three months of breast feeding is bronze boobies, six months is silver boobies and one year is gold boobies!!)

Feeding has been going fine.  He is reducing the time it takes, so a feed will only take between 10-15 minutes during the day, sort of every 3-4 hours now, but at night he is sleeping from 9pm after a good feed, and going through to 3am which is a marvellous 6 hours.  Then we sometimes have a bit of a struggle to poop, but once that is sorted he settles back down for another 4 hours so I cannot complain at all.

He is a very smiley boy at the moment.  He loves to see us first thing in the morning and breaks out with a huge grin!  He’s also very happy later in the afternoon.  He seems to have developed his own routine which is wake up about 8am, and I either get him dressed, or on Joel’s nursery days just take him out in his sleepsuit to get Joel there on time.  He then sleeps for about 3-4 hours, has a feed, a short awake time and sleeps some more.   He has a longer awake time in the afternoon, and may go back to sleep at about 4pm for a couple of hours.  He’s normally awake by 6pm and then sits in bed with me watching the ipad until his last feed between 8 and 9 pm before his long night sleep.

His nappies are still not quite right so yesterday I managed to get a new sample and we walked round to the hospital to drop it off for testing.  It was probably one of the freshest samples they’ve ever had as it was there within 15 minutes!!  Ha ha!!

Josiah still likes lying and looking at the world from his baby mat.  He certainly has a preference to tilt his head to the right and he has got a bit of flat head that side.  I try to encourage him to tilt it the other way by sitting that side and putting his toys there and it works for a bit, but whether it will round out again I don’t know.  It’s weird to think their skulls are so soft still!  He also likes his bouncy chair and will sit in that happily for ages.  If he is being held, he likes to be upright to look over your shoulder and walked around.  He is not a baby who likes to sit still in your arms unless asleep.  And even then he seems to prefer being put in his pram.  I really don’t seem to create cuddly children 😦  Ironically, our dog would love nothing more than to be invited to sit on our knee and be cuddled.  Maybe she got all the cuddly genes!!

He is a strong baby and he is learning to swing his legs up and has nearly rolled over a couple of times but not quite made it.   I really can’t remember what ages or stages babies are meant to do these things, but I do know all babies have their own schedules so am not worrying too much!  He is a good smiler and that is enough for me!!

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Here we are with Mummy squeezed onto the play mat as well!  Joss really seemed to see himself in the phone and posed beautifully!!


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He’s not in his cot yet, he still sleeps in his basket by me in our room, but he’s not as small in the cot as Joel was at this age!!  He loves lying there and looking at his wall stickers whilst I get dressed in a morning.  I will miss him when he moves into his own room 😦  I love this outfit though, it was a gift from my Aunty and Uncle!  And he’s so cute in it!

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And here’s me with my two boys.   I know all these selfies are rather self indulgent, but I realised I don’t have many pictures of just me and Joel whereas I took a lot of Joel with his Daddy and others.  So for me to have pictures of us together, I have to take them myself!  Not to be too morbid, but if anything were to happen to me, I want Joel and Joss to have evidence of our happy times.

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Admittedly, Josiah looks a bit stunned here!  Hee hee!!



6 Weeks

Ok, so my little big baby Josiah is 6 weeks old now.  He really is a lovely baby.  He’s cuddly, cute and has fitted into life very well.  I’m gearing up for the next growth spurt which is meant to happen at 6 weeks apparently.   It may have started as he’s gone from going to bed at 7pm, feeding at 10pm, sleeping through till 2am and having a feed and nappy change, then sleeping till 7am  (yep, 5 hours so what is classed as ‘going through’ by Dr’s) to waking every 2-3 hours again for a feed.   Just as my body gets used to the extra couple of hours!!  It’s hard all the adjusting.

My boobs are finding it hard as well.   One day they are fed on a lot and feel very empty, and the next they’re ready for a feed whereas he isn’t interested.  And if I were to express it would just create too much milk.   I’m sure things weren’t quite like this with Joel.   I know when I got mastitis I had to express a lot, but I seem to have a lot more milk this time.  The other night Steve, Joss and I were sat in bed watching ‘The American Office’ (Steve has watched them all before, but I’ve not seen them) and Joss was feeding, came off quickly to sneeze and a projectile spurt of milk kept coming out of my right nipple into his face.  I quickly clamped a muslin over it and Joss got back to work but I never actually spurted milk like that.   I’ve noticed on getting out of the shower, if I’m not quick enough to get a bra on, and nursing pads, I’m dripping milk all down myself and have to get back in the shower.   I even managed to get milk in my laptop the other day.  Don’t tell Steve!  He loves his applemacs.

Anyway, I’m hoping that the supply will settle down soon.   I’m getting through nursing pads like there’s no tomorrow and they don’t stay where they’re meant to, and seem to turn inside out all the time leaving the sticky attached to me, rather than my bra.  I could do with another bra as well as I’m having to wash them so often for when I forget to put the pads in, like this morning!!  It was only after answering the door I realised that when Joss had fed off my right breast, my left breast had been leaking at the same time!

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This is the best way to spend a morning.  Feeding, cuddling and re-watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  I managed to catch a little Joss yawn, and milky happy smile 🙂   Steve thinks that two is enough but I have to say I love the baby stage so much, I can’t quite imagine this being it for us already.   I’ve said we’ll have to talk about it in a year or so.  I love the close baby cuddles, helping them to grow through my own milk and doing all the goo-goo-gi-choo stuff!  Only for my own mind, I seem to prefer my own babies to everyone elses but I think that’s normal!!  Plus, I would love to have a little girl as well, not that a third boy would be a problem for me at all either.  The only issue is persuading Steve that it would be a good idea.  He is adament we’re done now.  😦  That’s way too practical for me!!

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Here Josiah is having some tummy time.  He’s not terribly impressed by it.  He is a very strong baby and frequently headbutts me, punches me and flings himself about in the direction of nipples if he feels he should have extra milk!!  But how cute is he?!!!

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Some more of his funny faces, both awake and asleep!  He’s starting to lose his hair round the sides of his head where he rubs it and turns his head in his sleep.  He’s going to be a little mohican soon!!

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Joel seems to be adapting well to having him around now.  The other day my Dad was holding Josiah and said to Joel, ‘can we keep him here?’ and Joel was very disgruntled that Grandad wanted to take our Joss away and told him firmly ‘no Grandad, Joss comes with us, he’s my brother’!!!  He likes having his little brother at home now.

It’s not hard entertaining a baby when all they want is cuddles, milk and sleep, but now Josiah is getting more awake time so we’re having nappy off time, lots of kicking, playmat time, tummy time and waving rattles in his face!!  he still prefers milk and cuddles though.


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Double bath time!  This is the first time we put Joss and Joel in the bath together but Joel was very good and didn’t splash him and even wanted to be the one to wash him.  Joss wasn’t terribly impressed and didn’t stay in for too long but Joel thought it was brilliant!  I think once Joss is a bit older they will have lots of fun together 🙂  The HV has said not to bath him too much, he seems to be prone to dry skin, like Joel was although not quite as bad as Joel’s excema.


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Joel suddenly seems to big and grown up now he’s not the baby anymore.  I carried him through from our bed one night to his own room and he was all long legs and body!!  And so heavy.  He is now mad on Thomas the tank engine.  We took him to Thomas Land on Saturday as they had half price entry to just Thomas Land at Drayton Manor, and we didn’t see the point in waiting to pay more when we wouldn’t get to go on any adult rides anyway!  I’ll do a Thomas Land post separately, but it was a great day and I was worried about us doing a day trip with Joss just being 5 weeks old but it was all ok!

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This weekend Martha my niece turned two so yesterday we went over Nottingham to have a little party.  Joel was very excited as he is very aware about birthdays now, and on being told that he wouldn’t be getting any presents himself cheered up enough to wish Martha a happy birthday and to give her our presents.   She had this marble run which Joel really enjoyed so that would be good for his birthday too.   We have however already bought him the climbing frame and don’t really want to spend any more money, (and can’t really spend any more money).

Plans are in motion for Joel’s birthday, being the Easter weekend we are just having our families round on the Saturday for lunch and playing in the garden on the new climbing frame which should have been built by this point by Grandpa and Daddy all being well!!  He has asked for a Thomas cake so I’m enjoying looking on pinterest for ideas.  The idea is to do it all as cheap as possible so I’m going to make some bits to make it more ‘Thomassy’ without the extortionate price tag that Thomas seems to generate!  All we need is for a sunny day!  Fingers crossed!!

Quick Catch Up!

There’s no denying it.  Life has got way more busy.  But today is a Thursday so Joel is happy at nursery and Joss is asleep and the health visitor is due in an hour to weigh and check on Joss so I’m sitting with a cup of tea, a HUGE box of Guylian chocolates courtesy of my Aunt and a quiet moment to update this a bit!!

Well, lets start with Joel.  He wasn’t too well on Monday.  I managed to walk to toddlers and back again, but Joel was a bit fractious, kept bursting into tears and then to top it all off seemed to have a bit of a funny tummy so we came home again and had a quiet afternoon with naps all round which was needed.  He was fine the next day though, I don’t know whether he was just really overtired as he’s been getting up in the night again.  A few nights ago he came marching into our room at 5am playing a harmonica!!  That was swiftly confiscated but the next morning he came marching in singing loudly a song about ‘my need to eat chicken’.

It’s not that we don’t appreciate his lyrical ability, but not at that time!  Anyway, after 6 there is no chance of his going back to bed to sleep and he woke Joss up with the noise so I got the better deal of staying in bed to feed and Daddy got to take Joel downstairs to watch The Land Before Time.  His new film of choice.  If I have to watch it one more time I may go crazy!!

We had a lovely report on Joel from nursery yesterday.  They really get the helpful and good Joel as he saves his naughty for Mummy and home!  But they said he was really sociable, is chatty and smily, loves making people laugh, enjoys role play and dinosaurs.  He will ask for help when needed and if questionned, will think and offer an answer.  He is enthusiastic at tidy up time (this one has not come home yet!!) and likes talking about his baby brother and Izzy the dog!

The next thing to work on is transitionning him from potty to toilet.  He’s a bit big now for the potty but with having short legs like me, can’t take himself to our toilet although he could probably manage a tiny loo at nursery.  He seems a bit scared of the toilet at the moment but we’re working on it.

He is being lovely with Joss, although we have had a few ‘attention’ seeking moments from him, one of which involved standing and weeing on the carpet!  We just ignored the behaviour, didn’t react the way he’d hoped and he hasn’t played up again so far.

And Joss is still doing pretty well.  We went through a tiring week last week where he was a bit fussier than normal and waking every 2 hours for a 5 minute feed at night!!!  I was shattered!  But I’ve got the ‘Wonderweeks’ app and his ‘fussiness’ does seem to coincide when this app talks about his brain developing so even if it doesn’t offer practical help, it does give a reason which is helpful and predicts when these ‘leaps’ will be taking place.

He is a good baby and we’ve had the first smiles already!  Right on schedule at 5 weeks, and I got one whilst changing his nappy that morning, and Daddy got some lovely beams that evening whilst he was having awake time.  He is a really strong baby and can hold his head up for ages.  He does not like tummy time on the floor but doesn’t mind lying on our tummies and holding his head up to look around that way.  He really seems to love Joel already and smiles for him, looks for him and calms down if upset and Joel goes to talk to him.

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He’s not been weighed for two weeks, and I was worrying a lot about green nappies at night, and his very short feeds but having questionned it on a breastfeeding forum, someone just said that he was probably a good feeder who got enough milk in a short time and that meant I was very lucky!  If that’s the case and he really is that good at feeding, then I should stop worrying and trying to find something the matter!  His weigh in today will let me know though.

He had the doctors last week with his lumpy eye and he thought it was a blocked tear duct so gave us some drops.   Nothing seemed to be working for three days, then suddenly it went overnight!  He went to bed with it, and woke up without it so his eyes are back to their normal shape again!  Hurrah!

And here are some pics!  I have to wrap this up as I’m scoffing chocolates like no tomorrow and need to regulate my food a bit more now!  Apparently I’ve got to the end of losing weight quickly and this is the point where I will put too much on if not careful.  I’m going to start my slimming world meals again, (Steve is not as enthusiastic as me, but he ate two whole malt loaves the other day claiming they were snack size, (they weren’t) and has been eating biscuits for breakfast!) and am looking at starting a pilates class once the Dr has signed me as being ok to do so.  I have to wait for the 8 week check as it’s all combined at my surgery.

So there we are!!!

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A family walk up at our castle.  Joel and Daddy entertained the dog and ran around up hills, and I ambled along with Joss in his Moby wrap and fleecy star!!


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Steve went off for a weekend leaving us, so we took a walk, made and decorated a cake, did lots of drawing and playing, watched Thomas on netfilx (again), planted seeds, and did some painting.  We were busy bees but it made the time go and Daddy came back to take over the next day!  He had a boys weekend filming a horror film with friends and although I was worried I wouldn’t cope, I did, so it was a confidence booster in the end.


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Brotherly love in matching tank tops knitted by Grandma!!

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Three Weeks….

As we went out for a day to Nottingham yesterday I didn’t get chance to post a blog.  It’s my sisters birthday tomorrow so we went over to give her presents a bit early.  Joel loves playing with his cousin Martha and now she’s talking better the two of them  were really interacting and playing cake shops and trains and chatting together!  It was very cute and lovely.

Anyway, Josiah has hit three weeks, and sure enough he’s still a text book baby.  Meaning he’s hit a three week growth spurt so my predictable and chilled baby is fussy and wants to be held and have boob all day long!  Plus at night he seems to have an issue with passing wind and poop so in the small hours he’s not settling as well and straining and pushing for ages and I’m not sure how to help him.

Joss is proving siblings are not alike, with weeing a fountain without a nappy on (Joel never did!!), and last night we had a projectile vomiting incident which has never happened to me before either!  He is a gannet this one, and will overfeed himself silly, but get very stressed and fussy if not offered boob when its’ wanted, then chucking it all up shortly afterwards.   I actually have baby sick on my shoulder today!!  And I’m tired from two nights of Joss straining and making noises.

At least Joel has gone happily to nursery today so I can chill out.  I tried to go back to bed this morning but Joss said ‘no’ so I’ve been bopping round the kitchen with him in the moby wrap, at least I’ve got the washing up done.  Maybe I’ll have a go at napping this afternoon once my friend Kath has been round shortly.  I could drop off now to be honest, Joss has finally gone to sleep in the pram so it’s typical I can’t nap right now 😦  Yawn…..

Jugging naps, babies and housework is all a bit difficult.

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Joel’s New Jumper

Grandma got a bit bogged under with knitting in time for Christmas, so Joel’s jumper came a bit later!!

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He’s quite the poser isn’t he!!

Should keep him snuggly now we’re getting some very frosty cold weather!  🙂


Bump Pic 36 weeks + 4 Days

I’ve been hanging out at my Mums most days this week with our bathroom being out of service and ta da, she has numerous full length mirrors!

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Here’s the bump being held up with my support belt!!  I feel massively huge at the moment and it really has helped me.  I would recommend it, especially as it was a cheap one for £12 off ebay!!

I had to take Steve to the doctors yesterday as he’s still not been well, and we got into see my favourite Dr.  He said that it sounded as though Steve has had the flu and therefore couldn’t have anything for it other than rest and paracetamol.  So as he won’t rest goodness knows when he’ll be fit again.  He asked me to go in with him, and I was glad to as Steve didn’t really know what to say his symptoms were and wouldn’t have relayed what the Dr said properly to me either.

The Dr asked after me as well and said he couldn’t see me going four weeks till having the baby.  He reckoned within two weeks!!  I hope so!  I’m really struggling with getting about, heaviness on my bladder, the discomfort that brings and general tiredness!  This weekend I shall make sure Steve stays in bed.  The builders aren’t in until Monday now so we can have a quiet weekend although my nephews are visiting tomorrow so Joel will go to have a play with them in the afternoon.

I got a lovely nap today as Mum and Dad took Joel out shopping to Lidl (!) and then sorted his lunch whilst I was in the land of nod in their spare room!  I feel tired again now though and ready for bed again!!  Once Joel goes up I may well get in my pj’s as well for an early night.

36 Week Scan Pics

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Not sure what we’re looking at here, can’t quite work it out!  Possibly a hand.


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But I’m sure this is a face of baby with his eyes closed, and possibly a hand by his nose, or a big nose!!  It all looks very squishy to me in there!  Come on out baby!!

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