Mr Know It All

Suddenly Joel seems to think that he knows it all.  And if it turns out that he doesn’t he gets a bit cross.  I’m not sure where it’s come from!  It’s worse when he’s tired.  And even worse again when I’m tired.

Steve has been away today and won’t be back till late tomorrow night.  And I think Joel felt weakness.  I didn’t sleep well last night, I was feeling anxious about my Moo Doo (which went well in the end!!) but man, I was weary this afternoon.

Joel played up and was just generally difficult all afternoon.  Maybe it’s because I was tired and not making enough effort to be patient, but somedays i just have less patience than others.  i’d planned a busy event which he and Josiah went to, then as Joss napped after lunch joel and I sat and watched Brave on DVD.

Then we had to go to Asda for shopping and Joel decided he did not want to sit in the trolley.  I knew he would be running off around the shelves and asking for everything so I put him in the trolley saying it was that or wait in the car, (obviously I did not want to leave him in the car, and I don’t think I’d have followed that through?!) but he then proceeded to scream and yell for the first few aisles.  I ignored him as he after a response, and I was feeling very fed up with his behaviour this afternoon.

Then we picked up a couple of hats for our holiday next month, (two matching Jake and pirates ones) and Joel just started being naughty again.  He just starts ignoring me and what I say.  So he pulled his wellies off (which he was wearing by choice) and started chewing on them.  i asked him to put it down, they are very muddy wellies and he continued.  I gave him two warnings that I would put his hat back if he wasn’t good and he carried on, so I put his hat on a random shelf and off he went.  Major tantrum and yelling, smacking me and what’s worse is that josiah started copying him.

I do not want either child thinking that they can get away with this, and I was feeling upset that Joel think’s he can do this.  maybe I expect too much of him, and I know he doesn’t like Steve being away but he kept saying ‘please don’t tell daddy’, so he knows it’s wrong but chooses to act up anyway.

The other daft bit is that I’m sure I was like that at his age too.  I ran my mum ragged so maybe I should just take a deep breath and remember that he’s only three, (for another 6 days at least!)

When he’s good, he’s absolutely great!  i tried a hat on and he said that it looked ‘lovely mummy’!   He comes out with some fabulous comments and statements.  I hope it’s just a being tired and grumpy thing rather than a sign of things to come.  It just adds a whole new level to the challenge of parenting!

Josiah is also growing up even more!  He’s suddenly a complete climber and I blink and he’s on the arm of the sofa!  He loves waybaloo and we have some cuddly piplings that joel had, and he loves playing with them.  Still not walking, but pulling up and standing a lot more now.

He’s a lot more bossy now than Joel was, (although he seems to be more bossy these days), and he shouts where he wants to go, what he wants, and for any reason really!  He wants to feed himself all the time and if you offer a spoon he has a mini tantrum.  But he is so loving, and cuddly.  He’s going through a clingy phase where he only wants me, and if Steve takes him downstairs, or i leave him with Steve for a shower he will scream and scream!  I guess I could be flattered, but it is a little wearing as well.

I feel bad that i’m criticising them, as they are good more often than not, and I’m not sure if what I determine as good is too high a standard?!  How can you decide a standard?

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Hello Old Friend….

What a long blog break I’ve had!   Life is just getting in the way, and any chance I get to sit down I tend to think TV or book at the moment as I have very little brain for much else.

Work is a bit rubbish.  We have now all been informed that our jobs are redundant as of 30th August this year.  So I applied for managed severence to be told ‘no – you have to stay’!!  After over three months of waiting to hear.  I feel as thought I have a new plan now, with my Moo Music business, and I would relish the opportunity to really give that a good go as I am getting four established sessions running, with returning mums and children which is so great!!

It’s hard to walk away from a decent job with a good wage and excellent holiday entitlement, but I now feel that I must have disadvantaged myself as who is going to want to hire me now anyway?!!  I really don’t know what to do for the best.  I can always apply again to leave, but having been turned down once I’m not sure if it’s worth it.  It’s just galling having to leave without anything when redundancy has been offered but maybe that’s greedy of me.  It would just help with childcare for a few months whilst I got Moo underway properly.

I’m very glad I have two wonderful boys at home.  I really do love them so much.  They are happy boys and get on really well.  Josiah is now one, and still not walking!  he much prefers to sit, be carried or just point and shout for things to be brought to him.  Joel didn’t walk until 15 months so he’s got one month left if he’s going to catch up.  He seems to be very vocal, and has ‘mama’, ‘dada’, brabra’ and gra gra down!!  We always know exactly what he wants!

Joel is getting on really well at pre-school  and bringing home regular awards for ‘helpful tidying’, ‘recognising letters from the alphabet’, ‘being fab at storytime’ and others!  His confidence has gone up loads and we’ve already had a visit to the reception class which he loved and he can’t wait to go up in September.

The house is still much the same.  We’ve papered the hall, stairs and landing, but not quite got around to painting it yet.  We are still wondering about extensions and sorting the kitchen.

So it’s a brief recap really, but life is just so very busy with so many pressures at the moment!

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