I don’t like to worry. I really don’t, but when you wake up with a pain in your middle, it makes you wonder and worry about all manner of things.
It may not even be baby related, I could have had indigestion, or whatever, but because it’s centred around my middle, I instantly think, ooh, what did I do?
‘Did I carry something too heavy, I should not have carried that shopping bag’, ‘I think I drank a little milk that had turned because I couldn’t smell it due to the cold’, ‘was it the fact I ate some chilli crispy beef from the Chinese for tea’?
Am I being a bad mother even before baby gets here? Am I not taking enough care of myself?
But I have got some pains going round me, I think they’re too high up to be baby related, but wowser, I’ll have to just go and browse the baby forums to see what it could be today I guess. If I’m still worried, I’ll be going to the doctors to enquire. I’m sure it’s nothing. Nothing has actually happened to make me suspect otherwise. I just feel all safe and secure for about a week after a scan, then stress for the remainder of the time until the next appointment which is two weeks on Wednesday. Ages in fact 😦